Thursday, July 22, 2010

LIFE ...

LIFE is challenging
and
LIFE is changing .

Either it's good or not for challenging or changing , its all well depends ..

i admitted that my life is changing and challenging for the past 2 years..
i changed after i challenged ??? Or i challenged till i changed ??
i REAL wonder. ) :

i thought i will be happier after i challenged but i think i'm wrong .

For the 1st things i found i'm wrong is when i found i "lost" the sis who i used to date to gossip'ing , to chit-chat'ing and to sharing most of the time.

I'm not complaining tho. I just don't know who should i shares with. EVERYONE Some said i changed after i attached. I can only said maybe only those who attached will real understand, do i really changed or just my status changed??(and NO !! i'm not teasing here k ?? )

I'm seriously not purposely to get out from the circles, just the circles seem like no longer let me to "fit" myself in. That's real real real sad when i found this.

When i'm attached , i'm no longer in the invitation list for yam-cha'ing nor gossip'ing .
(when i said why i'm not being invite, answer will be :"aiya, u need to pak-toh mah" ) that's so sighz ...

When i'm attached, when i sincerely to invite also some might said :" aiya, today no need to pak-toh only date me arh ?? " should this be sighz too ??

When i'm attached, i'm being so sad when i found i'm no longer in the yamcha'ing list ..
When i'm attached, i'm being much more sad when every time i felt "curious" or "scared" for either dating others or not.

But , LIFE is changing , Human is changing and so do you and me.
And we born to learn everything non-stop'ing ... That's the only reason i told myself each time when i felt the pain.

so LOST i'm ... I can't find the WAY out. i'm seriously STUCK... Seriously I'm .


I'm here to apologize if i CHANGED too much.


... peace & love ...



" So little time
Try to understand that i'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
i try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing and i don't feel the same "
- Lily Allen -


1 comment:

Groovy said...

Don't feel so sad...there are a lot of paths in our life. Sometimes we change path, move to different chapter in life but it doesn't mean that we changed our feelings towards ppl around us...